I saw Yoochun in the campus next day. I was told that Yoochun’s brother would take care of the store and he had time for his studying. I felt good when he was ok. I just couldn’t take my eyes off him
I saw Yunho buying a coffee cup in the canteen and we went together to Microeconomics class. It was a make-up class as next week, the teacher would be busy preparing his daughter’s wedding ceremony.
Normally, we would went straight to the final row like usual, but today, Yunho stopped in front of the class, looking at his watch, it was still soon and there were a few students in the class.. and I saw Jaejoong who was trying to hide his face under his notebook
_”I want to sit there”- Yunho pointed at the position next to Jaejoong
He gave me a chill for his decision. There was nothing I could say, Yunho already sat there. There were some students seeing their places taken over by a stranger. They curved Yunho but I saw him completely happy when Jaejoong didn’t reject him
All I did in the class was listening to the tick tock of the clock, my head was full with other thoughts that I couldn’t concentrate on the lesson. Yunho must have felt that way too. He couldn’t play his Ipod or do his stuff. That must have been boring. I felt so sorry for his unilateral love, he had to suffer a lot of things. Much ado was about zero. Then I heard Jaejoong’s voice like a small kitty cat
_”Yunho, can you share your book with me ?”- He hesitated-“I left mine at home”
_”Oh, sure”-Yunho moved his book to Jaejoong
_”Thank you”- Jaejoong’s face became bright
_”Jaejoong, I’m sorry for making fun of you in the canteen that day”- Yunho apologized
_”That’s fine. I completely forgot it”- Jaejoong smiled. How kind he was!
_”Oh, I mean that butter cheese can cause cancer, but you know, there were some confusions”- Yunho shrugged
_”Yeah.. I know”- Jaejoong giggled
I was totally tired of romantic scenes
_”Next time, you don’t need to bring your book. It’s heavy. You can use mine”- Yunho generously said
_”Oh…”- Jaejoong felt touched-“But how’s about you?”
_”Changmin is willing to share the book with me”
Oh my fucking god. Now I was involved in their story. He didn’t know that sharing books with people can lose the concentration, he was a fucking idiot. There was no point telling Yunho as he was such a bad student.
On the top of that, I felt so jealous. I wasn’t mad at sharing my book but why Jaejoong on his top priority was. He cared about him rather me who spent a night with him. Why didn’t he ask me if I felt heavy when carrying the book. I felt lost. I felt jealous…
_”Hey Yunho”- I almost shouted at him
_”What?”- He didn’t catch up with it
_”You’d better treat me well. I knew what happened last Thursday night”- I asserted
_”You did?”- Yunho’s face became grey
_”I knew it like a back of my hand”
Then the feeling of winning came to me. He thought I didn’t know that he left me alone in the motel this morning. He thought I was like Kim Jaejoong whom he easily fooled
_”I won’t tell anyone”- At least, I tried to be good to him
_”My mom definitely won’t like it”
He sighed. That was true. His mother was fed up with his mess at school and in society as well. Now, she must have been mad when hearing her son sleep with her friend’s son. Oh. What a mess! Maybe I could take it as Yunho’s weakness. What? I was not bad. I just demanded him to care more about me
These days after that, Yunho was good to me. Particularly, he was obedient to me. Not like an order. But when I wanted him to do something, he just did it as the way I asked. I was so much content. For Yunho, I took possession of Yunho. Of course, he wasn’t an object. I loved him, so I felt jealous with Jaejoong. I didn’t want to lose him so I had to control him. Most of the time, I did it in front of Jaejoong. I wanted him to know who Mr. Jung Yunho really belonged to
Like he said, I grew up and started to have feelings for a particular person. The thing was it wasn’t one but two people I fell for, at the same time. I was a two timing boy who torn between two guys
If I had to choose, I should let go of Yoochun. Firstly, he already had a girlfriend, and I didn’t want to be the third person. Second, I couldn’t deny that I slept with Yunho. If I had chance to be with Yoochun, I couldn’t stand it. Yoochun was a good person and he didn’t deserve my cheating on him. I felt like betraying him. For me, it was worse than being stabbed by a knife a hundred times.
Only Yunho left, he was the one with me through thick and thin… Only him left
_”How you been?”- Yoochun asked me warmly
_”Yeah, I’m good”- I stared at my shoes as getting nothing to do
_”Actually, there is….”
He was about to say something with me, then Jaejoong interrupted us
_”I couldn’t find Yunho today. Can you give him this book?”
_”Sure”
I replied with a very cold expression, maybe Jaejoong knew I didn’t like him, so he didn’t say much to me either.
_”Heechul said that Yunho liked that boy, didn’t him?”- Yoochun curiously asked
_”I don’t know. He fell for several people and he wasn’t very… you know… serious”-I put Yunho’s book in my bag
_”I think Yunho likes you. I always see you two together”
I froze for a few seconds. Maybe he was misunderstanding
_”We’ve been friends for such a long time. That’s all”
_”You like Yunho too, right?”- Yoochun raised his eyebrows a bit-“You mention him often in our conversation”
_”I don’t know”- I was confused, really, I wanted to know my feeling towards Yunho-“Is there something that you want to tell me?”
_”Oh yeah, I almost forgot it”- Yoochun said then showed me what he had-“I got two tickets of “How to train a dragon” the movie. Keep it and go to the cinema with Yunho”
_”Oh, no. Just keep it to yourself”
_”Actually, this Saturday, I will have a date with Min Young. It’s a long time since we last met. We plan to go the aquarium and then eat dinner at Chinese restaurant”
Yoochun smiled, pushing his hair up. Oh. I forgot. He DID get a girlfriend. The fact was just so cruel that I couldn’t hold my tear. With much effort, I tried a fake smile
_”It seems like you already got a detailed plan. Remember to tell me if something fun happens”
Outside, I jokingly touched him with my elbow but inside I felt so much pain as if I was dragged into pieces. Yoochun smiled back at me and that was it, nothing happened, we just remained silent then grew apart…
