*Author: writing this chapter while listening to Last Night of Good Charlotte is too way terrific^^
The fucking morning sunshine woke me up when I was in the middle of my dream. I told my mother several times to change my window curtain. But….she had already changed it
I woke up, feeling so headache. This room was absolutely not mine. I put my studying corner in the left of the bed, then the wardrobe was seen in the middle right. They just disappeared and were replaced with strange objects, a clock on the wall, purple curtains and white and thick blanket. Completely out of my mind, I was about to jump out this bed, but I felt so much pain in my body, especially my waist, which made me so hard to make a move. Then I noticed something…
Under the white blanket was my naked body
Oh my fucking god! I just spent a night with someone else. One night stand. All I could recall was a pitch dark hole that blinded my sight. Perhaps I might have used drug. You know, it is a phenomenon that starting something can lead to another thing, just like a supply chain. I may have used drug, as a consequence, I had sex…
Then I looked at the pillow placed next to me. The cologne was still there. Actually, it was the smell of the skin. It was familiar with me, but I couldn’t get it. My brain stuck in a dirty mud…
I rushed to school. Regardless of whatever happened, I must go to school. It had always been my philosophy and I was the type that if there was something already established in my mind, I could never change it…This mindset was somehow like Yoochun
Here I saw Heechul and Siwon chatting happily with each other in the corner of the canteen. Suddenly, Heechul turned his head to me, waving his hand
_”Hey, look at this! Somebody wasn’t home last night!”
Why on the earth did he know that? Then I easily learned that I was wearing the old outfits of yesterday. I began to feel butterflies in my stomach. I had better keep silent for my own sake
_”It’s none of your business”
There was a voice behind me. It turned out that Heechul’s question didn’t point at me, but somebody else. It was Yunho who was in his mossy green T-shirt, which was exactly what he wore in the club. Then he smirked at me, directly approaching Heechul’s side.
Maybe it could be him who offered to take me home last night
One of my last images on brain was his smirk…
_”Last night was the best night of my life”- Yunho drank Heechul’s coffee cup
_”Me too. I had a lot of fun”- Siwon agreed
_”I didn’t expect that your move could be that nice”- Yunho intimately put his arms over Siwon’s shoulder
_”And I never expected that I could be that badass” – Siwon signed but looked excited
_”No, I think you’re awesome as fuck. Your fans will go wild again”- Heechul said
Then I followed Yunho to our Microeconomics class. My body still ached, so I had to walk slowly, leaving Yunho ahead of me
_”My back hurts”
As I said painfully, I had Yunho do the massage service. The touch of his hands and my back chilled me to the bones. Suddenly, I remembered his tenderness and softness on my skin, also I missed the humidity when his mouth covered mine. Ashamed as I felt, I admitted being brought to the certain level of emotion I had never had before. I got nothing to lose and totally dedicated myself. The pleasure was so great or I could say the peak of organism. Along with the content, it was bittersweet as I lost my virgin to Yunho who was a diehard fan of Good Charlotte and frequently paid for his late comic book returning
_”It’s just because of me that you hurt that way, Changmin ah”- Yunho said, and I felt frozen. Was he confessing to me?
My suspicion strengthened as Yunho acted strange with” the love of his life”. He passed Jaejoong by when we went to the class. It was not the way he behaved before. I meant, during the lecture, no paper plane or his rubbish code… totally ignoring. Maybe he could think that he already slept with me, at least, he should get some responsibilities, plus his love with Jaejoong was hopeless, there was no point continuing it
Now I know that people don’t appreciate thing until they lose it. Maybe Jaejoong could feel that way too. Or I could interpret it like he was gradually used to Yunho’s annoying existence, suddenly, he changed like 360 degree, of course, the boy couldn’t adjust it. Sometimes, I caught Jaejoong look back several times but Yunho didn’t know it. He and his hands were busy playing his Ipod placed underneath the table, sometimes yelling:”Screw you” when he lost the game
I and Yoochun just studied together in one class but we usually met around the campus. Normally, if I didn’t see Yoochun one day, I would feel down. But today, I thanked god that I didn’t bump into him. I would so guilty if seeing him today. I couldn’t stand the fact I slept with someone else, other than him. I knew that it was equal for us as he already got a girlfriend and I was a bachelor. It was not illegal. But I felt angry at myself. I punished myself by means of not seeing him
_”Yoochun is absent today. Do you know where he is?” – I asked the guys. Apparently, I just couldn’t stand a single day without him
_”I don’t know. I’m not his babysitter”- Yunho answered, he still stuck his eyes on his Ipod like glue
_”Oh, his grandmother is sick, so he has to take care of the store”- Siwon informed me
_”You seem to care about him, don’t you?”
Heechul’s words implied that he knew something unusual. Like Jaejoong, Heechul got a feminine look, but his eyes were sharper, which gave me an expression that he was reading my mind and he’s never going to skip any detail. I shouldn’t have hung out these guys all along, they were smart in a dangerous way.
_”No, I feel strange because I see him frequently at class, but not today”- I finally found a reason but it sounded stupid
_”Really?”- Heechul raised his eyebrows, maybe, I should be more careful with this man
_”It’s normal that you develop feeling towards a person. You’re grown up”
Now, that was Yunho’s turn. Ordinarily, Yunho I knew was sometimes serious in a childish way. But today, he was different. I meant, he was differently serious. Why did you mean by “grown up”? Yeah. I grew up. I lost my innocence and virgin because of you. By that, you experienced my growing up
_”Yunho and Changmin seem to know each other very well. How are you two related?”- Siwon asked
_”We play together”
The beast inside me wanted to slap on the table as Siwon and Heechul began to chuckle. The person answering the question was still busy with his Ipod, which was the center of his concern. I hoped they didn’t get it wrong that Yunho already fucked me
_”Oh…”
Then we saw a shy-as-usual Kim Jaejoong with his food tray, Yunho’s hopeless love. He caught sight of Yunho’s at first and shyly turned away. Yunho finally took his eyes off his Ipod
_”Hey”- Yunho waved his hand politely- “How you been?”
_”I’m…I’m fine, thanks”
He smiled slightly and then we did nothing but stared at him wearing an old stripped T-shirt and his food tray.
_”Jaejoong. I believe that butter cheese will make you super fat. Your boyfriend doesn’t like overweight people, right?”
These words seemed harsh. Yunho’s lips moved like a crescent moon. It was unbelievable that Yunho was teasing Jaejoong. Wow. A one sided love could bring people to another extreme, I meant, like enemies. Now, Yunho must have filled with resentment. Heechul and Siwon both burst into laugh for his joke, and I just couldn’t help myself making a certain noise.
_”What’s up, girls?”-Yunho said jokingly
Jaejoong looked confused. It wasn’t long before his eyes became teary. When I saw him apologizing to Yunho, I felt so wrong to make fun of him like that. By the way, I had no idea why he kept on apologizing to Yunho. Most of the time, I saw him doing it
_”Is that all you can say? Sorry…Sorry your ass…”
Yunho got mad over him. He suddenly left the table, leaving Heechul and Siwon giggling and me goggling. He was definitely not in a very good mood for the time being. Just leave him alone and everything would be just fine again. But the thing was Jaejoong couldn’t understand it. He thought he hurt Yunho so bad and he should be punished for it. Wow, I bet in his entire life, that harmless boy didn’t hurt anyone feeling. What a good boy!
It was beneficial to befriend with student president. I meant he could give you some value information. With the help of Siwon, I found Yoochun’s grocery store address. Absolutely I knew his house but had no idea that he got another store also, and it was not located near his living. It was absolutely in suburban, which took me two bus tours to reach there.
It was small and old grocery store. It should be exactly said that it belonged to his grandmother. That was why they decorated it in traditional and old-fashioned way. Then I saw his bright smile that made me suffocate
